Feeling Kinda Better
Im not so blah today. My muscles dont hurt. My heart does. lol... such a pussy. So I broke up with my girlfriend. Well it was mutual actually. She didnt like me anymore. I never liked her to begin with. It works. Im not sure where to go from here. Its hard being friends with my ex.
I dunno if Ive mentioned it, but Jeff, this dude on here, him and I have a lot in common lol. He was telling me how he is attracted to his ex, but he thinks they would be better friends. Well I thought about it. I think we are good friends. But... we dont have friend feelings. We are good at pretending though. I KNOW she doesnt have friend feelings. She just acts for me. Cause she knows thats what I told her I wanted. But Im so attracted to her.
I dont have "just friend" feelings. I love her. Im attracted to her. Im comfortable and happy when Im around her. I know the longer I make her pretend she doesnt have feelings for me, the more fucked up things are going to be. They are already fucked up. wtf. The only difference between now and when we were dating is this: we arent having sex. I know we are happier with eachother because I had to deal with a lot of issues. Issues I dont really want to discuss with strangers. Thank you. But other then that. We have a relationship beyond friendship. We always have. Weve never been just friends. It will never happen either.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Can guys scream? Well I just did. I dont know what to do. I spend time with her, and I think wow I am really having a good time. Then I realize how different it is from a normal friendship. I cant explain it. You wouldnt understand if I did. Now that I am actually ENJOYING myself, I want to enjoy EVERYTHING! Alright so Im a male and I want to have sex. Whats the big deal. I already know a problem we had was to much sex. But if I had sex with her, Id know not to have TO much. Maybe I dont even want sex. Maybe I just want the basics. Start with the basics right? We slept together once, as friends. I wanted to cuddle her. I didnt want to scare her. I dont know WHAT to do.
No one understands. wtf...
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I dunno if Ive mentioned it, but Jeff, this dude on here, him and I have a lot in common lol. He was telling me how he is attracted to his ex, but he thinks they would be better friends. Well I thought about it. I think we are good friends. But... we dont have friend feelings. We are good at pretending though. I KNOW she doesnt have friend feelings. She just acts for me. Cause she knows thats what I told her I wanted. But Im so attracted to her.
I dont have "just friend" feelings. I love her. Im attracted to her. Im comfortable and happy when Im around her. I know the longer I make her pretend she doesnt have feelings for me, the more fucked up things are going to be. They are already fucked up. wtf. The only difference between now and when we were dating is this: we arent having sex. I know we are happier with eachother because I had to deal with a lot of issues. Issues I dont really want to discuss with strangers. Thank you. But other then that. We have a relationship beyond friendship. We always have. Weve never been just friends. It will never happen either.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Can guys scream? Well I just did. I dont know what to do. I spend time with her, and I think wow I am really having a good time. Then I realize how different it is from a normal friendship. I cant explain it. You wouldnt understand if I did. Now that I am actually ENJOYING myself, I want to enjoy EVERYTHING! Alright so Im a male and I want to have sex. Whats the big deal. I already know a problem we had was to much sex. But if I had sex with her, Id know not to have TO much. Maybe I dont even want sex. Maybe I just want the basics. Start with the basics right? We slept together once, as friends. I wanted to cuddle her. I didnt want to scare her. I dont know WHAT to do.
No one understands. wtf...
posted by P at 10:29 AM
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